I officially lost it.

I called out sick from work today.
I am not sick.
I am just thoroughly fed up with life.
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I am sitting here.... and listening to an old c.d. There is a story as per why....I flipped out. Literally. I sat down and wrote out all of my credit card debt... and almost vomitted. I have been following a ... ok.... I have been loosly following a financial guru and now I am in the most non-eloquent of ways going to say my financial standing.
I am flat ass broke.
End of story. I, who have been egotistical in my financial leaps and bounds. Miss High and Mighty, "Oh have you heard of..." because "I follow him.." (in my head, I say this in a British accent because it sounds more arrogant....) Yeah.... I follow him EXCEPT when I feel like I need to go buy a $200 purse... whats another $200 on my credit card... I can certainly pay that off in no time, and in fact, I will direct all my extra cash to that until its paid of... *ahem*.... plus a years worth of interest, and more purchases that I absolutely needed ....And multiply that by 12 credit cards (yes.. really...12 credit cards) and a new car, and a school loan and here I am...
Flast ass broke.

After 2 days of depression, I called out sick from work, because that makes ABSOLUTE sense... but in my head it does, because I needed a break. I have been tremendously slow for the last 3 weeks, but when my clients ask..... "Oh, I'm slammed! I have a waiting list!" Which has always been true.... until 3 weeks ago. Maybe everyone else is flat ass broke too? I am sick of caring for today....
So... Thus comes my flip out. My living room is a complete disaster... why? Because I am selling everything I am not overly attached to. I can always buy more later, right? Yes... once I am a millionaire. Time to honestly follow my financial guru who says sell everything and live on beans and rice until you pay off your debt....
So...

any takers?? Believe me.. I have amazing things to sell.... please tell me someone has seen that movie with Brittany Murphy... uptown girl I think....
yes. I am UpTown Girl. With a serious spending problem.... and more debt to show.