I am (not) PERFECT...

I am a rambling, broken mess of a person sometimes. I have this horrible addiction. I am not sure how to break it. I am obsessed... addicted to... crave... love.... breathe.... pine after.... lust for... the compliments of my clients. It is such a horrible addiction. I do hair every day, all day, and I have a very faithful group of clients who love me... and I get told every day "You are so amazing, like usual!" "You are the first stylist who has ever cut my hair right!" "You are so fabulous at styling!" "I LOVE my color!" "You work miracles!" see... i get a high just rewriting these things, knowing they are true. Its ridiculous... but what actually happens is, I become a slave to these compliments. I become a slave to these clients. If they don't fuss over their hair, then I go through their entire service, detail by detail, until my brain nods off into blissfully peaceful sleep. I become horribly attached to my clients as well. I woke up this morning with a migraine. I used to get them all the time, until I did the Master Cleanse, and now I will get them, maybe ever 6 weeks, or so? Anyway.. I woke up with a migraine, and I checked my books to see who I would have to cancel on today. I felt horribly guilty for the first 2 hours after I called out from work. How ridiculous? I WAS SICK. End of story. But, for me... I just felt like I had let someone down, like this ridiculous characteristic (that showed up about... 7 years ago *long story* ) of perfectionism had overwhelmed me for 2 miserable, dark, and suffocating hours. I kept checking my books to see who had rescheduled. HELLO?!?! I was SICK! But... this need to please everyone in my life, it overwhelms me. Sometimes I think I need to see a shrink.
lol.
My dog does not suffice in my desire for guidance....

so what do i do now? how do i dig myself out of this hole i have dug for 7 years? how do i stop being a slave to my addiction ... how do i stop being a slave to pleasing my clients/mother/husband/friends/random strangers....?! I have no idea.... What I do think, however... is I have secretly medicated it for 7 years... with.. Brownies. Ice Cream. Popcorn. Coke(as in soda). McDonald's. M&M's. Sweet Tea. French Fries. Chips. and etc., etc.................... and.. I am 40 lbs heavier for it.
boo.